.::*~Just Me~*::.

By: Sarah

Figuring that since theres nothing to say

Id go off and enjoy my day.

With Sublime blasting in my headphones

The reggae sooths me from my head to toes.

Singin and boppin my way to school

Doing what I think is cool.

I hang in a place some call hell

But Im handling it rather well.

Groovin down the hall in my ripped jeans

Wearin a black t-shirt that happened to be clean.

Goin to each class; my usual route,

Its all good and Im totally chilled out.

Gossip here and problems there,

Its funny how I dont even care.

Hang with my friends and eat some lunch

Get me some fries that I can munch.

I figure, thats my chill time

Cuz everyone there seems to be fine.

Singin and boppin in my new black shoes

Im the sexiest person in this whole damn school.

Shoot some hoops and run a lap

Till I get home to my 10 watt amp.

Playin my baby till you see the moon

I wonder if the band will get here soon?

I take a yawn and a stretch and head to bed

I fall into my palm tree covers and Im so dead.

Till tomorrow and I wake up

And I eat my cereal in a cup.

Head to school again with Sublime

Leavin my empty house beind.

Its all good and Im totally chilled out

Cuz theres nothing to worry about.

*.*~Chester Street~*.*

By: Sarah

Kerri had a baby in a place not far from here

The bad thing was she had drunken too much beer.

Down the road and across the bridge

Past Chester street & towards the ridge.

Baby, baby... youll never learn

Till you grow up and its your turn.

Youll lye around and feel the pain

Baby, baby your goin insane.

Lets cool out and take a drive

Youll never even wonder why.

Why this world is so unfair

Baby, baby just dont be scared

Kerris boy John grew up real fast

Smoking dope & looking for cash.

Kerri never really gave a shit

Ever since that one dude split. (oh yea)

Baby baby your sons insane

Dealin on corners in the pouring rain.

Yes, time went by so fast

Drinkin that shit & sellin grass.

Lets cool out and take a drive

Youll never even wonder why.

Why this world is so unfair

Baby, baby just dont be scared

And one day kerri and her son

Finally went out for once.

They were gonna get some deli meat

Down there on chester street.

Well Kerri lost control yellin at john

The car flipped and they were gone.

Now Kerri and john lay dead & beat

From mother fucking Chester Street.

Lets cool out and take a drive

Youll never even wonder why.

Why this world is so unfair

Baby, baby just dont be scared.

*You & Me in 2003*

By: Sarah

As we think back

Throughout 2003

We were the best of friends

As friends could be.

You were always there

And I never went anywhere.

From prom to dates

And flashing classmates

We knew wed be friends

Until the very end.

One simple year

Can bring a world of tears.

So many things come

And so many good times went,

But we stayed the same

Even when crystal split.

Remember AJ, TJ, CJ guy?

And when we met him he was high?

And when I skated down the slide,

Ha, we both thought for sure Id die!

Remember how Crystal loved us?

And remember how she hated us?

And remember how we never knew

Which side of her we could trust?

We never cared how to light a bong

But you sure loved your slut song!

From Will to Allen

And from Joey to Nick

We always knew

How to get a kick.

We know its nothing new

That we are true blue

Knowing were best friends

Forever, until the end.

From the Jacobs and the Matts

To the Jasons and other brats

We were proud no matter what

We dont care if were sluts!

Remember the condom candle?

And how Mrs. C was too much to handle.

Remember our hacky-sack phase

Man those were the good ol days!

Im Easy Mac and your Easy Cheese

We had all the guys beggin on their knees.

Or at least in our dreams.

Man didnt you love 2003!!

Remember those nasty guys,

The ones we dated?

We did it anyways,

Even though we hated it.

From losing our midget

To gaining a Mexican

To losing the Mexican

And gaining a parrot,

We stayed together

Like birds of a feather.

Two dumb girls

Just tryin to survive

We tackled the thrills

And theirs nothing to hide.

Life as your friend has been great

But well run off in 2008,

Friends we know well always be

Cuz we know we rocked 2003!!!

*~*Rain*~*

By: Sarah

Its still raining and Im still lonely,

Nothing changes fast but everything changes slowly.

My eyes are blind and my knees are week.

Its a sad day because everyones so bleak.

My minds not growing and Im getting dumber,

My heads still thumping and my bodys getting nummer.

The way things are, are not the same,

Because we all fall short and theres nothing but the rain.

The weeks fly bye and months graze slowly.

The years, they pass by and Im still lonely.

My bodys aching and its from the rain.

The rain I walk in that so easily drains.

As I walk I get cold my body shivers,

The dreary days make the night go quicker,

As I lay alone I whole-heartedly quiver.

The rain never stops and my eyes never dry,

As I watch pathetic nothings surpass me by.

The grave attention so desperately needed,

The sick, sad way that they succeeded.

The dripping sound pelting on the roof

The crying ties it in to make it sound smooth.

The rain has stopped; its over again.

Now that its done, where do I begin???

*.*Wished him to be mine*.*

By: Sarah

I saw him, he saw me,

From that day forward I wished it to be.

Innocent talk led to innocent dealings,

Innocent me with certain feelings.

Passing graveyards Id hold my breath

For us to be together until death.

My heart so big and ready for him,

The chances of failure were oh so slim.

Days turned to weeks, and weeks to months

By that time I thought he was still the one.

I was ready for what was going to happen. So then,

Id open the door to my heart and wait for him to walk in.

Im eager and persistent,

Yet, Im being patient.

Be flirtatious and outrageous; its all I know to do

Without me throwing down the first move.

I didnt have anything classy in mind,

Other than to just wish him to be mine.

What shall I do? Whats next to come?

Will he be mine? Or will I still be only one?

Staying up late and thinking about the guy I saw

The guy for whom I made my heart thaw.

We started out innocent and then what happened?

Ill be okay but my heart has found its end.

How can you live without a heart you say?

Itll rekindle when he comes back another day.

But see, I thought this was the end of the line,

Till it was my birthday and I wished him to be mine.

.::*Just who they are*::.

By: Sarah

Everybody begins to lose themselves with what they are

They forget, and begin to be what they arent,

They seem to stop and fail to start.

They never really know just who they are

Because they cry and never know what for.

They seem to think that theyre lost souls,

The instinct has changed and they do what goes.

Whatever feels right; a spur of the moment,

The types of things that the normal ones just dont get.

The way they feel is just all in their heads,

Nobody figures they could wind up dead.

They forget how to be themselves

Nobody can see what this compels.

A lost heart; no respect for anyone;

Everyone sucks; what good have they done?

Low self-esteem, in self-denial,

A lot of self-pity thatll stay for a while.

They collapse and figure its all done with,

They breathe until gone, no cares for that last breath.

They fade slowly and see its all going;

The pitied souls who have lost all knowing.

Its all over and they see what theyve done,

Theyll always think that theyre the only one.

*:~:Conscience:~:*

By Sarah

Back and forth your feelings turn,

Mine stay strong,

This feeling burns.

The damage you've caused

So rich with pain,

Alone I seek a kind-hearted soul,

But everyone is so plain.

This feeling of emptiness

I thought would fade,

Yet all I feel is bitterness and hate.

The way they tare me down,

Pull me from below,

They cut me back,

You got me bad.

I'm lost in my world

Your here with me

But not supposed to be,

The one i'm with is out,

The out came back in.

My world is crumbling

Im fading away,

I do not understand

My life today.

On you I dwell,

I have a guilty conscience now,

My minds in hell.

Youre the one I think about,

But not supposed to be,

Im mixed up

My head's not strait,

I dont get this situation...

Its so strange,

I dont understand.

My mind is too simple

In a complex way,

I only understand what I want to

Now I want

What I cant have,

But I have what I want

But its not what I need.

My mind replays

The images of my

You

Our mistakes.

I hate this feeling

Wait as my heart breaks.

A flash of what happened

Sends me back,

Concentrating on the past,

I cannot move forward.

Reality hits hard,

Harder than u ever did,

But too weak to bring me back

From where my mind has wandered.

Alone my soul,

Breaks in 3,

To you

To him

And one lost.

Lost because I fumbled,

I lost my passion

And lost my soul.

Im only dead weight,

Nothing more.

*~>Dieing day<~*

By: Sarah

My Dieing day,

I Fade away,
I love no more,
I feel no pain.
Love's a shame,
A losing game,
For all its worth,
I'm to blame.
I cannot think,
And cannot speak,
Emotions are crazed,
I feel so weak.
I Run away,
I'll die someday,
Away from you,
Alone with pain.

*-:|:Matter:|:-*

By: Sarah

Does it matter
Because I dont think it does
What I think
Is what doesnt
What I say
Is what nobody listens to
What I feel
Is what nobody cares
So I dont expect you to
I dont expect much
But I wouldve expected one thing
For you to be true
Because thats all I want
But its too much to ask
But what I want
Is what doesnt matter
And what I think
Is what nobody cares
And why I'm here is what I wonder
Because I am not thought of ever
My existence is not thought of
My thoughts arent cared for
What I care for is rarely said
And what I speak of
Doesnt matter
Because I dont
My thoughts dont
My words dont
I dont
...Matter